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Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
about o levels and my feelings right now
hi! so i'm back. so for o levels i got 8 points raw. 6 points net. english got b3, maths a1, amaths a1, bio a2, chem a1, phy a2, combined humans a1, chinese a1. so that's all for my results... so i decided to go mjc. i think that my choice was not bad. like everybody keeps on pressurizing me to go tjc. i mean it's like i know it's not bad. but tthen must still think for me rite? i dont want to go to tjc. like only 3 of them are going there (from what i know). so it's like why not choose a school that confirm will take me, make me happy and more than 3 of my friends are going there? i dun understand these people. it's good to strive for the best. i know. everybody wants to see their kids going to better schools. but then what the heck? did my parents ever concern about me? it's like they dun even know what's the problem with me!! i'm like constantly losing my mind. suddenly fainting, always full up never hungry. there's definitely something wrong with my body! and i'm so unhappy about my body! it's just the legs part. it's so fat! i dun even look nice in jeans or shorts or whatever that accentuates the thickness and width of my thigh!!!!
i know that i'm 17 now. everybody around me starts to act pretty, buy nice clothes and all that stuff. for example, take my sis. she's like suddenly wanting to buy all these nice nice clothes that has no prints on it just like those 20 year old kid would wear one. i admit that we're growing up. our wardrobe should be full pf pretty clothes, dresses and all that stuff. YX loves buying ex stuff. but does she know that her father has limited means??? it's like his credit card reached $6000++!!!!!!!! that's like more than his month's salary is gone just to pay these debts!!!! who doesn't like to buy nice things? i do like to buy pretty things. for instance a few days ago, i asked mum to buy a bag for me. but then in the end, wtf, YX takes the bag everyday now. i don't even get a chance to carry it once. well, i dropped her hints that i want to take the bag out later. but apparently, she don't understand. it's like wtf, i'm the one who asked mum to buy for me!!! now. it's her property! life is so unfair.... sometimes it just doesn't go the way u want it to be... everybody is like comparing my results and YX results every time there's a major exam. so this o level thingy. i did'nt put in 100% effort and i know it myself. but then they cant compare our results like that! i know she's smarter than me. so what? i does not mean that i have to score the exact same score as her! so she gets the good stuff while i do not.
people thinks that i have already forgetten what happened to me during my childhood. i was treated horribly. i was treated like trash. i tell you, nobody can understand what i had to go through when i was young. NOBODY.
eveyone in my family treated me like trash. my mum hated me to the core. i know it in my heart.she everytime also threatens to kill me with the knife, force me to eat chilli raw. which was so freaking hot and the worse part is that i cannot drink water. and i had to wash my own plates after dinner but i have to stand at the basin for hours and wash my bowl with only soup. i cannot even touch the water tap. she made me do real horrible stuff. she thinks that i dont remember? well, i remember them vivdly. then there's my dinner. you know what i get? i get a bowl of rice and the pork she used to boil the soup. that's it. it was so horrible. everyday, i dreaded going back home. but my sister just doesnt get it. she dont know that why i walk so slowly everytime when i come near home. i was not a place where i called home. then there was my father. he was always overseas. so when i was young, he did try to protect me. cause when i was young, i wasnt allowed to step into my room to even sleep. i had to wait in the kitchen and wait for her cue to let me go to bed. i mean which child has to run in to bed in fear of being scolded by her mum to sleep? which child had to eat chilli raw when she was young and cannot drink water? which child had to do squats everytime her mother was unhappy? which child has to stand and eat in the kitchen alone to eat while the rest of the family members get to eat at the dinner table? which child has to put on a fake smile everytime someone asks you about are you happy?IT WAS ME! my childhood was really horrible. my brother would supoort my mum and said that he would help her use the knife and kill me. my sister betrayed me and told mum whatever i told her. and i would get a real good beating. and everytime my father tried to help me, my mother would like get all jealous and threaten divorce where my brother and sister goes to her and i go to my father. my father would eventually relent and got tired of protecting me. that's why i never tell people about my childhood. whenever my friends tell me theirs, i would not say a single word.
but every one is better to me now. that is why is always lose to my sister. i tribute it to my childhood....
i know that i'm 17 now. everybody around me starts to act pretty, buy nice clothes and all that stuff. for example, take my sis. she's like suddenly wanting to buy all these nice nice clothes that has no prints on it just like those 20 year old kid would wear one. i admit that we're growing up. our wardrobe should be full pf pretty clothes, dresses and all that stuff. YX loves buying ex stuff. but does she know that her father has limited means??? it's like his credit card reached $6000++!!!!!!!! that's like more than his month's salary is gone just to pay these debts!!!! who doesn't like to buy nice things? i do like to buy pretty things. for instance a few days ago, i asked mum to buy a bag for me. but then in the end, wtf, YX takes the bag everyday now. i don't even get a chance to carry it once. well, i dropped her hints that i want to take the bag out later. but apparently, she don't understand. it's like wtf, i'm the one who asked mum to buy for me!!! now. it's her property! life is so unfair.... sometimes it just doesn't go the way u want it to be... everybody is like comparing my results and YX results every time there's a major exam. so this o level thingy. i did'nt put in 100% effort and i know it myself. but then they cant compare our results like that! i know she's smarter than me. so what? i does not mean that i have to score the exact same score as her! so she gets the good stuff while i do not.
people thinks that i have already forgetten what happened to me during my childhood. i was treated horribly. i was treated like trash. i tell you, nobody can understand what i had to go through when i was young. NOBODY.
eveyone in my family treated me like trash. my mum hated me to the core. i know it in my heart.she everytime also threatens to kill me with the knife, force me to eat chilli raw. which was so freaking hot and the worse part is that i cannot drink water. and i had to wash my own plates after dinner but i have to stand at the basin for hours and wash my bowl with only soup. i cannot even touch the water tap. she made me do real horrible stuff. she thinks that i dont remember? well, i remember them vivdly. then there's my dinner. you know what i get? i get a bowl of rice and the pork she used to boil the soup. that's it. it was so horrible. everyday, i dreaded going back home. but my sister just doesnt get it. she dont know that why i walk so slowly everytime when i come near home. i was not a place where i called home. then there was my father. he was always overseas. so when i was young, he did try to protect me. cause when i was young, i wasnt allowed to step into my room to even sleep. i had to wait in the kitchen and wait for her cue to let me go to bed. i mean which child has to run in to bed in fear of being scolded by her mum to sleep? which child had to eat chilli raw when she was young and cannot drink water? which child had to do squats everytime her mother was unhappy? which child has to stand and eat in the kitchen alone to eat while the rest of the family members get to eat at the dinner table? which child has to put on a fake smile everytime someone asks you about are you happy?IT WAS ME! my childhood was really horrible. my brother would supoort my mum and said that he would help her use the knife and kill me. my sister betrayed me and told mum whatever i told her. and i would get a real good beating. and everytime my father tried to help me, my mother would like get all jealous and threaten divorce where my brother and sister goes to her and i go to my father. my father would eventually relent and got tired of protecting me. that's why i never tell people about my childhood. whenever my friends tell me theirs, i would not say a single word.
but every one is better to me now. that is why is always lose to my sister. i tribute it to my childhood....
Sunday, January 2, 2011
about on 31st 2010- 1st 2011!!
hey! i'm finally back! okay cause the last few week i was lazy to update. but here i am! :) so on 30th 2010, i went with XY and ZH and XW and WS to class chalet. we met up of course. like duh. =.= it was at erm pasir ris apparently. at downtown east. where all the parang attack ttook place. there. haha. on 30th wasnt very fun actually. we just went there, say hello to each other then ate dinner together then went home.
on 31st, i went to wild wild wet. haha. of course i was late. like duh. when wasnt i late once? okay so when i reached there, everyone was like waiting for me. like obviously. but nobody scolded me except for S. then we went to WWW. okay. so we took the rides there. it was like i think 18 of us... so we took the i dunno wat ride. it was like a group of us then we went down the slide. smth like that. it was thrilling but not scary... then we continue taking a extremely scary ride. me and WS took together. so it was like zooming up and down FROM GREAT HEIGHT. i was like totally freaking out!!!!! my heart nearly jumped out of my body!!!!! i was like OMG. some more the ppl who took before me still told me i was all right.like WTF??? then we spent the entire afternnon there. oh ya. we like sit under the big buket of water and kanna splashed by alot of water, my head was damm pain. then we oso got go to the swimming pool. there was like this tsunami thingy there. where they create waves. so i was like there blobbong up and down. WHILE holding on to a float. so my ar,s were like damm sore... we oso got go jacuzzi. aiya. we just went to everyhting at WWW lah. then we left... so went back to chalet. bathe. and played BIG2.5. haha. was fun. played with almost everybody who knew how to play. :)
late in the night was BBQ of course. so actually we invited the teachers. but then when i called them, all of them said that all not free. so we proceeded by ourselves. went to bought beer. like duh. =.= who dose'nt drink in chalets?? after we finished barbecuing, went in to play BIG2.5 again. played with mostly guys. then we countdown together. :) then went hoe.
next day, i realised that i was sunburnt!
on 31st, i went to wild wild wet. haha. of course i was late. like duh. when wasnt i late once? okay so when i reached there, everyone was like waiting for me. like obviously. but nobody scolded me except for S. then we went to WWW. okay. so we took the rides there. it was like i think 18 of us... so we took the i dunno wat ride. it was like a group of us then we went down the slide. smth like that. it was thrilling but not scary... then we continue taking a extremely scary ride. me and WS took together. so it was like zooming up and down FROM GREAT HEIGHT. i was like totally freaking out!!!!! my heart nearly jumped out of my body!!!!! i was like OMG. some more the ppl who took before me still told me i was all right.like WTF??? then we spent the entire afternnon there. oh ya. we like sit under the big buket of water and kanna splashed by alot of water, my head was damm pain. then we oso got go to the swimming pool. there was like this tsunami thingy there. where they create waves. so i was like there blobbong up and down. WHILE holding on to a float. so my ar,s were like damm sore... we oso got go jacuzzi. aiya. we just went to everyhting at WWW lah. then we left... so went back to chalet. bathe. and played BIG2.5. haha. was fun. played with almost everybody who knew how to play. :)
late in the night was BBQ of course. so actually we invited the teachers. but then when i called them, all of them said that all not free. so we proceeded by ourselves. went to bought beer. like duh. =.= who dose'nt drink in chalets?? after we finished barbecuing, went in to play BIG2.5 again. played with mostly guys. then we countdown together. :) then went hoe.
next day, i realised that i was sunburnt!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
WA LAO TODAY I DAMM PISSED SIA. WATS THE P WITH EVERYBODY? DUN GO PROM THEN DUN GO LAH. IT'S MY PROBLEM RITE? NOT THEIRS. AND I DUN EVEN FEEL REGRETFUL FOR NOT GOING FOR PROM SEH... I'M LIKE WATEVER LOR. DUN GO DUN GO LAH. VERY IRRITATING SIA. I JUST DUN LIKE TO GO MA... DAMM ASSHOLE SIA. HATE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH. BUT I'M LIKE TOTALLY GLAD I DIDNT GO. HAHA. CAUSE IT'S TMR. AND MY MOUTH IS LIKE OMG. HAHA. :) KAYS TODAY WAS LIKE VERY BORING LAH. I STAYED AT HOME FOR THE WHOLE DAY... WATCHED DESPICABLE ME (LIKE FINALLY!) AND EASY A (ONLINE OF COURSE)... HAHA. OMG. THE LITTLE PPL IN THE DESPICABLE ME IS LIKE SO DAMM FREAKING CUTE CAN???? AHHHHHHHHH. I WANT TO HAVE THEM!!! THEN THE EASY A WAS LIKE I TOTALLY DUN UNDERSTAND... HAHA.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
HeY! actually RITE THIS POST IS SUPPOSE TO BE YESTERDAY DO ONE. BUT THEN HOR YESTERDAY I SLEPT AT 8PM CAUSE MY STOMACH WAS LIKE TOTALLY IN PAIN. THEN I GO SLEEP LOR. TO EASE THE PAIN... HAHA... YESTERDAY I WENT SCUBA DIVING... HAHA... IT WAS QUITE FUN LAH. BUT THEN RITE I LIKE KEEP ON LIKE DRINKING POOL WATER VERY DISGUSTING... HAHA. THEN AFTER THAT WENT TO HAVE LUNCH WITH S... THEN WENT TO FIND CHRISTMAS PRESENT FOR YX... HAHA. COULDNT FIND BY THE WAYS...
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
hey today was an extremely extremely tiring day... omg. i like work this whole freaking week sia. actually i want to take leave today one. not go to work... than i go ask ppl go out with me like s and xy. initially is ok one. but then boss drop hints here and there, hinting that she want me to work today... i finally relented... sighs. then in the end i had to cancel the outing... i feel very bad sia. cause i was talking s into going out with me then in the end i had to tell her i cannot... feel very bad sia... but there's nothing i can do... all in all, today i very very tired... it's like i really want to go out with my friends but then i cant... i really really very sad... hahas..
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